Okay, this is working, his pulse is up to about 140 now, and his breathing noticably quicker. Guppy concentrates on death, doom and the fact that he's really upsetting Kate, then gives his answer.
"No, we killed Koren. The three of us, together. It's... it's the only time I've ever wished for a person to die. He would have killed us but I still helped take a life. The final blow was struck simultaneously by the three of us, as I stabbed my sword into his middle. We were all wounded, though Atton fixed us up. I don't remember much about Will's injuries; I collapsed from blood loss after the fight and had to be carried to safety."
He can count his own pulse; it's thumping in his ears. It's about 150 now, and he's starting to get chest pain. And inside he knows it's because of the panic attack, but that cold feeling is creeping up inside him - what if it's not? What if it's a heart attack? What if he goes into cardiac arrest right here, where neither Kate or Teja have any idea how to prevent it? His heart is racing, his fingers are starting to tingle with the hyperventilation, he's sweating, he's shaking and he feels like he's going to die. And then Alex will have to grow up an orphan and he'll never see him or Frogspawn again...
No, it's not a heart attack, it's a panic attack. One that is starting to self-perpetuate because he knows he's losing control of it. But the longer he can keep this up, the more likely he can attract Atton.
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Date: 2009-08-16 03:43 pm (UTC)"No, we killed Koren. The three of us, together. It's... it's the only time I've ever wished for a person to die. He would have killed us but I still helped take a life. The final blow was struck simultaneously by the three of us, as I stabbed my sword into his middle. We were all wounded, though Atton fixed us up. I don't remember much about Will's injuries; I collapsed from blood loss after the fight and had to be carried to safety."
He can count his own pulse; it's thumping in his ears. It's about 150 now, and he's starting to get chest pain. And inside he knows it's because of the panic attack, but that cold feeling is creeping up inside him - what if it's not? What if it's a heart attack? What if he goes into cardiac arrest right here, where neither Kate or Teja have any idea how to prevent it? His heart is racing, his fingers are starting to tingle with the hyperventilation, he's sweating, he's shaking and he feels like he's going to die. And then Alex will have to grow up an orphan and he'll never see him or Frogspawn again...
No, it's not a heart attack, it's a panic attack. One that is starting to self-perpetuate because he knows he's losing control of it. But the longer he can keep this up, the more likely he can attract Atton.
"Next question?" he asks, breathlessly.
160, if Teja can count that fast.