Guppy stares at him, the frustration building up so hard that something snaps.
He flings the plate of sandwiches across the room, where it smashes, gets up and walks back into the bedroom.
He curls up in a little ball on the floor next to the bed, already regretting throwing the plate. Waves and waves of emotions flooding him; the almost paralysing feelings of anxiety mixed in with the anger he has at himself for allowing those feelings to exist. The bitter disappointment in himself when he knows that Atton and Will deal with this sort of thing their entire lives and don't go mad or break down or throw plates and go curl up in a little ball.
The fact that the only useful role he plays in this team is as the medical officer, and yet his care and attention is of so little value as to warrant being deliberately and repeatedly ignored.
They've come so close to dying at the hands of others, that to watch Atton deliberately defying the things that might stop this toxin killing him is truly unbearable.
He pushes each emotion down, hard, bottling it up inside, and wiping his cheeks quickly in case one of the others comes in to investigate before he can go back out there and apologise.
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He flings the plate of sandwiches across the room, where it smashes, gets up and walks back into the bedroom.
He curls up in a little ball on the floor next to the bed, already regretting throwing the plate. Waves and waves of emotions flooding him; the almost paralysing feelings of anxiety mixed in with the anger he has at himself for allowing those feelings to exist. The bitter disappointment in himself when he knows that Atton and Will deal with this sort of thing their entire lives and don't go mad or break down or throw plates and go curl up in a little ball.
The fact that the only useful role he plays in this team is as the medical officer, and yet his care and attention is of so little value as to warrant being deliberately and repeatedly ignored.
They've come so close to dying at the hands of others, that to watch Atton deliberately defying the things that might stop this toxin killing him is truly unbearable.
He pushes each emotion down, hard, bottling it up inside, and wiping his cheeks quickly in case one of the others comes in to investigate before he can go back out there and apologise.